A Tale By Quincy - The Weeknd

That's it
没错
Looking back now I didn't know what it was supposed to be
现在回过头 我不知道事情本来应该是什么样的
And it's like raising kids man
这就像是养孩子 伙计
If you weren't raised you don't know how to raise you know
如果你没有被抚养长大过 你也不知道要怎么养 你明白吗
I just did the best that I could with them
我只是对他们尽了我最大的努力
Because they know f**kin' well I love them
因为他们很清楚我爱他们
But I didn't do the best I could
但我没有尽力做到最好
I didn't know what the f**k I was doing
我不知道自己究竟在做什么
I didn't
我不知道
I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straightjacket
我这辈子都忘不掉 我妈妈被套上拘束衣
And taken out of my home when I was only seven years old
从家里被带出去 那时候我才只有七岁
She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox and put in a mental institution
她被诊断患有早发性痴呆 被送进了精神病院
Leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd
留下了我爸爸 我 还有我的弟弟Lloyd三个人相依为命
I later had an evil stepmother
然后我拥有了一个可怕的继母
Who further cemented the idea that I didn't need a mother
她甚至让我坚定了自己不需要母亲的想法
Growing up without one had long lasting influence
我就这样在一个对我影响深远的人身边长大
I didn't fully understand until much later in life
直到很久之后我才完全醒悟
It bled into my relationships with family
这影响了我和我家人的关系
And those I had became romantically involved with
还有我过去的所有恋爱
Whenever I got too close to a woman I would cut her off
无论何时我接近一位女性 我最后都会跟她一刀两断
Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear
一部分是出于我的报复心理 一部分是源于我内心的恐惧
But it was also totally subconsious
但这完全是潜意识的作用
Looking back is a b***h isn't it
放不下过去是很混蛋的行为 不是吗