A Letter - 白鲨JAWS

It's been a while now
Since I could raise a pen
And feel my heart beating
I woke up from this poison
To see the world instead
I had lost you in it
When I sewed my eyes and reached
Into the night looking for the same melody
Replaying my memories
They hurt my finger tips
Chasing away ghosts
So that when I'm alone
I could stick my fall
I know when time goes
It will hang the phone
Before the sun sets low
An ocean of rye with its brightened glow
Wavering slowly like farewelling to the world
But I wouldn't leave at all
Right here I found my soul
But there's no way to
Turn off this feeling
I don't deserve to
Get caught in between
Some day I should be reacquainted
With your reality without my shadow
Haunting me
The colors I see
Are never meant to paint
Withering roses
But why would I explain
Myself again to another sunrise
Without the moonlight by my side
Laughing at my own jokes
Will it soft the blow
For when I let you go
At my own one man show
I never had to know
That it wasn't real at all
Leading different roles
So much has changed like I've never known you before
Waiting by the door
Were the mistakes I never had a chance to make
I hesitated
But pain will fade
Oh there's no way to
Turn off this feeling
I don't deserve to
Get caught in between
Some day I should be reacquainted
With your reality
I'm spiraling down for now
Just let me be
Turn off this feeling
I don't deserve to
Get caught in between
Some day I should be reacquainted
With your reality without my shadow
Haunting me someone will tell me
The colors I see
Are never meant to paint
Withering roses
But why would I explain
Myself again to another sunrise
Without the moonlight by my side